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Category: psychedelia

  • My Journey Through Misdiagnosis: A Tale of Resilience and Healing

    My Journey Through Misdiagnosis: A Tale of Resilience and Healing

    Introduction

    Life is a journey filled with unexpected twists and turns. For me, this journey began with a misdiagnosis at the age of 19. I was told I had psychosis, a diagnosis that would shape the next 27 years of my life.

    The Misdiagnosis

    Despite an extreme history of trauma and daily alcohol consumption, state and county mental health professionals diagnosed me with atypical psychosis. This diagnosis, while it provided some answers, neglected key aspects of my experiences and symptoms.

    The Struggle

    Living with a misdiagnosis is like trying to navigate through a storm without a compass. I spent years trying to overcome a psychotic disorder, maybe schizophrenia, maybe bipolar with psychosis depending on the doctor, seeking help from various sources and even working in the mental health field myself.

    Self-Discovery and Healing

    In my quest for healing, I became a certified yoga and meditation instructor. These practices provided a sense of calm and stability amidst the chaos. However, the turning point came when I discovered ketamine-informed and trauma-informed therapy.

    The Power of Accurate Diagnosis

    These therapies have been instrumental in my healing process. First looking at trauma and then my extreme insomnia the primary psychotic label was dropped, allowing me to focus on processing trauma and working on sleep hygiene. They have allowed me to process my trauma with ketamine and therapy and understand the role of alcoholism in my experiences. With this newfound understanding, I am finally on a path towards true healing.

    Conclusion

    My journey has been a nightmare of public mental health, poverty and broken relationships. That first misdiagnosis has been the defining feature of my adult life. It’s a reminder that we must advocate for ourselves, seek second opinions, and explore all avenues of treatment.  Diving into ketamine therapy has been nothing short of miraculous. If you are suffering PTSD, Anxiety Depression, or Addiction I highly recommend looking into it, after all, everyone deserves a chance at true healing.

  • Guided Meditation with Hypnotic Induction and Binaural Beats

    Guided Meditation with Hypnotic Induction and Binaural Beats

    Hey there, fellow mind-mappers and reality hackers! Ever dipped your toes into the Monroe Institute’s Hemi-Sync Gateway Experience? Yeah, it’s pretty amazing, but here’s the thing – what if we cranked up the binaural beat game a notch? ??

    I’ve brewed up a trippy video that’s your ticket to the twilight zones of consciousness. Imagine a hypnotic induction intertwined with droning music, dialed down to the Delta level – where the mind’s borders dissolve into pure exploration. And oh, heads up, grab those headphones for the full mind-melting effect. ??

    No time limits here. No wake-up calls to yank you out of the zone. Just you, your synapses, and the limitless expanse of trance to navigate. We’re talking deep-sea diving into your own neural seas, my friends.

    So, here’s the lowdown: hit play, kick back, and let’s unshackle the brainwaves together. If you dig this tech-savvy mind-twist, drop a like, spread the word, and hit subscribe – because we’re all aboard this consciousness-expanding train. ??✨

  • Skrying in the Spirit Vision. Guided Meditation for the 32nd Path

    Skrying in the Spirit Vision. Guided Meditation for the 32nd Path

    Astral travel, conversing with higher beings, and climbing the Tree of Life have been much on my mind recently, so I thought I’d make a guided meditation video to help get people started. If you enjoy this please like, follow, and subscribe on all platforms or buy us a coffee at

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  • A Mind Unraveling: Ronald Reagan Antichrist and the War in Heaven

    A Mind Unraveling: Ronald Reagan Antichrist and the War in Heaven

    In the annals of human history, tales of war have always captivated our collective imagination. From the epic battles fought on earthly landscapes to the cosmic struggles that transcend our limited perception, the concept of conflict has long fascinated and perplexed us. But what if I were to tell you that a war of unimaginable magnitude is being waged right now, far beyond the confines of our mortal realm? A battle in the heavens that surpasses our wildest dreams and deepest fears. Prepare yourself, dear reader, for a journey into the untrodden territories of celestial warfare.

    Enter the enigmatic world of Nostradamus, the famed 16th-century French seer whose prophecies have intrigued and confounded scholars for centuries. Embedded within the verses of his cryptic quatrains lies a chilling revelation—the emergence of three Antichrists, destined to wreak havoc and herald the advent of Armageddon. As we examine this notion, one figure stands out amidst the tumultuous landscape of history—Ronald Reagan, the 40th President of the United States.

    At first glance, the connection between Reagan and Nostradamus may seem tenuous, if not outright preposterous. But beneath the surface, we find a web of eerie synchronicities that cannot be dismissed lightly. Reagan, the charismatic leader who assumed the reins of power in the early 1980s, embodies several characteristics that align him with Nostradamus’ prophetic vision. His rise to prominence as an actor-turned-politician, his role in the Cold War, and his policies that reshaped the global geopolitical landscape—all bear the marks of a transformative figure.

    Nostradamus’ third Antichrist is described as a “great engine of destruction” and a harbinger of cataclysmic events. Could Reagan’s policies, such as the escalation of the arms race, his unwavering commitment to capitalism, and his fervent belief in American exceptionalism, be the manifestations of this dark prophecy? Nostradamus speaks of his Antichrist being wounded in the head but surviving, just like Reagan did when shot by John Hinkley.

    The battle in heaven, the ultimate clash between good and evil, may seem far removed from our earthly concerns. But if we scrutinize the events of the 1980s and beyond, we find a disconcerting series of events that resonate with Nostradamus’ prophecy. The escalation of conflicts, the erosion of societal values, and the relentless pursuit of power—all appear to be part of a grand tapestry woven by unseen hands. Could it be that Reagan’s presidency was a turning point in the cosmic struggle, a critical chapter in the eternal war?

    Yet, in this exploration of celestial warfare, we must exercise caution. Nostradamus’ prophecies, steeped in ambiguity and open to interpretation, have attracted their fair share of skeptics and naysayers. The allure of conspiracy theories can easily ensnare the unwary mind, leading us down a treacherous path of delusion. It is essential to approach these ideas with both an open mind and a healthy dose of skepticism.

    So, what are we to make of this notion of a war in heaven, and Reagan’s enigmatic role within it? Are we mere pawns in a cosmic chess game, or does the responsibility lie solely within our own human hands? Perhaps the truth lies somewhere in between, in the vast expanse of uncertainty that permeates our existence. We may never fully comprehend the intricacies of the unseen battle, but by exploring such possibilities, we invite a deeper examination of the forces that shape our lives and our world.

    In the end, whether Reagan was indeed the Antichrist of Nostradamus’ prophecy or merely a consequential figure in the grand scheme of history is a question that may forever elude our grasp. But this dark point in American history hints at unseen hands and higher dimensional intervention. The very nature of prophecy is shrouded in mystery, leaving us to grapple with the limits of our understanding. But is it any solace that the most fervent Reagan worshippers call themselves Christians?

    What we can glean from this exploration is the recognition that our human narratives, both historical and mythological, often intertwine and overlap in curious ways. It is in these intersections that our imaginations take flight, seeking to unravel the enigmas that surround us. While we must approach such ideas with caution, for they can easily lead us astray, there is value in engaging with them as a means to expand our perspectives.

    Whether we choose to believe in a war in heaven, the machinations of celestial beings, or the influence of prophetic figures, what truly matters is the impact these ideas have on our consciousness. They provoke us to question the status quo, to examine the motivations behind human actions, and to contemplate the larger forces at play in our lives.

    Perhaps the true power of Nostradamus’ prophecies lies not in their literal fulfillment but in their ability to stir our collective consciousness, to challenge our assumptions, and to provoke introspection. In the realm of mythology and symbolism, the Antichrist represents the embodiment of evil, the personification of destructive tendencies that reside within us all. By exploring the concept of the Antichrist, we confront our own capacity for darkness and are compelled to seek the light within ourselves.

    So, whether Reagan was the Antichrist, a visionary leader, or simply a man navigating the complexities of his time, let us use this contemplation as a catalyst for deeper reflection. Let us examine our own actions and choices, recognizing that the battle between good and evil rages not only in the heavenly realm but also within the recesses of our own hearts and minds.

    In the end, we are left with questions that defy easy answers, mysteries that beckon us to explore the depths of our own consciousness. As we navigate the complexities of our existence, may we find solace in the pursuit of truth, compassion, and understanding. And may we remember that the true battle, the war that truly matters, lies not in the heavens above but within the choices we make each day, as we strive to create a world that reflects our highest aspirations. That being said Ronald Regan left this mortal coil having fulfilled his mission of the complete destruction of the American dream, the rise of racism, the drug epidemic, the corporate takeover of every facet of life, and the creation of new feudalism, complete with serfs and slavery.

  • The Antidote to Religion

    The Antidote to Religion

    Most of us are locked into a tunnel reality created by our upbringing and designed by the originators of our native religions. Do you want to break free? Choose “Bob” as your short-duration personal savior and never fall into the trap of straight thinking again.

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    You can watch the full movie on Tubi for free here.

  • Dualities of Mind and Travel in Higher Dimensions

    Dualities of Mind and Travel in Higher Dimensions

    Greetings, my cosmic traveler friend! As we embark on a journey to explore the dualities of mind and travel in higher dimensions, let us dive into the mystical and mind-bending realms of Tao and I Ching.

    While Western psychology has been struggling with the apparent dualities inherent in conscious existence since Queen Victoria’s time, other cultures and societies have been creating more accurate models of the nature of these dualities for centuries. Here I present two of these models for your consideration, so buckle up, baby!

    1. The Tao and I Ching

    Trigrams of the IChing

    If we look at the base truths of our reality we can see from our perspective there appear to be three physical dimensions, while we experience another dimension as the passage of time. To science, this is where reality exists. At some momentary now point, despite the Universe expanding and all items within it in constant relative motion an “objective” reality exists. This presupposes an objective reality apart from mind or consciousness. However given the rapid advances of theoretical physics and the apparent facts of either string theory or M-Theory being true, we know quite concretely that we are missing dimensions that the whole would depend upon given its measurable features. Most likely our reality has either 10 or 11 dimensions and we are only aware of four of them if you believe the materialists. Now think about the directions and the cardinal points. On the plane we have four directions, depth gives us two more (up and down), and time gives us two more (past and future), despite not being able to travel from future to past in our current predicament. If we make the dualistic Yin-Yang center of our consciousness the relative center of the Universe, we arrive at the eight possible directions of travel seen in the above diagram. Each of the Trigrams represents a mode of direction proceeding outward from the center of the mind.

    The Yin Yang symbol is an apt one for our conscious exploration of the nature of mind as each side contains the seed of its opposite and it is depicted in motion. I would posit to you dear reader that this symbol represents the positive and negative currents of mind each stimulated by its opposite pole but different than the deeper duality of root consciousness and the mind itself. I would suggest that in order to realize this fact in action it is necessary to silence the thought track, whether that be verbal, like most people, or more like pure thought for others. Not everyone has an internal monologue, but it is easier to observe the roots of thought if you are able to silence the thought process that you have identified with in this lifetime. If you have an internal voice and silence it, you can observe the two other voices which create this experience of living through monologue. They are the twin devil and angel of your waking being, they are most noticeably not your voice. They are seeds of mental motion who, in their interference pattern of waveforms generate that stream of rambling that the unfortunate believe is their consciousness. In the sleep-walking world of this society, seemingly externalized and very dangerous to navigate, it is beneficial to surf this center wave of consciousness, whether it is breaking good or evil, because those are the rules of the game we are given.

    But wait, there’s more! What about the question that arises when you encounter this aspect of mind: if my inner voice is not me, and this devil and angel are not me, who, what, and where am I? We can say, that for now, you are that thing which is observing these facts of mind. In Yoga it is referred to as Purusha or Soul and for our purposes now we can also refer to it as witness consciousness. It is possible through meditation to show the conscious mind the appearance of Purusha which is then reflected back at itself to be witnessed, but itself is the thing which is doing the observing. What you have come to accept as mind is actually the motion in life-force, Chi, or Prana closest to the metaphysical consciousness of your individual Purusha. The ether is the mind, and all matter, including your body and brain are merely regularized and temporarily structured disturbances in this Universal sea of Life. The organs of sense, with their electrochemical signaling, merely translate and transmit manifest point-events to and from the Purusha.

    Now, what the I Ching theorizes is that moving up one level in awareness rather than giving us 10 directions of travel the map itself doubles to 64 different modes of movement.

    64 Hexagrams of the I Ching

    This may be great for divination and to show the combination of states of mind, but if we are to travel any further up the central axis of consciousness, the exponential explosion of states of mind quickly becomes overwhelming as the next level gives us 64 X 64 states at minimum. Better then to switch to a different map or model.

    2. The Tree of Life

    Occult version of the Tree of Life

    If we think of this model as approximating similar ideas of dimensionality as the I Ching, we can use it as a map for exploration of higher dimensions. The first four dimensions of the manifested Universe being represented by the four-fold division of Malkuth into the cardinal points, then every plane on the way upward can be seen as a new dimension. This adds the element of multi-dimensional directionality to our map, as well as a description of the modes of travel between these higher coordinate points. For example, the straight path upward along the beam of consciousness takes us to Yesod, the bottom-most point of which is the dreamworld and is visited by passing through the unconscious or awakening the Kundalini. It only adds a new directionality of up and down perpendicular to all the right angles of the four dimensions. The current illustration, though not all theorists agree on this point, shows two divergent paths on either side that we can use to get to the sixth dimension, the Hod-Netzach plane, through the conscious modes of madness on one side and death and rebirth on the other. By the time we reach this 6th dimension, we already have 22 directions of travel along 11 paths, but like traveling from the South Pole, if we are grounded in Malkuth, every direction is also North.

    This is where we get the feeling that Heaven is in the sky, or the idea that certain types of consciousness are “Higher”, the realm we are beginning from is the South Pole of Consciousness and if we want to stay in the World of awareness all other directions are “Up”. Various means of exploration are available to the traveler from the Shamanistic to the purely mathematical, but within the superstructure there has to be a witnessing consciousness. The wave function of probabilistic ether only collapses to a point-event upon observation. What we cannot take up the tree is the material body and physical mind of the brain. The current of life-force is such that all gross material manifestation is pushed to the four-dimensional world and a successive chain of vehicles for the Purusha is necessary to travel higher. Luckily for us thinking/dreaming creatures the next vehicle up is the astral body, or as you may be more familiar with it, the dream-body. This body takes less of our ego and persona with it, yet we are able to recognize it as ourself and rarely have an identity crisis upon waking from dream. You do not have to be asleep to access this body on its travels, you only have to be very relaxed. The probability of any event being observed in dream is much easier to influence than here in the manifested material spectrum, and once dreamed, easier to bring into this world. All the techniques used to visualize a point-event in a higher dimension and then observe the desired event in this realm constitutes Magick, and it is the reason persisting in a very rigorous meditation practice is necessary to produce reliable willed occult events on our plane. Increasing the difficulty of this endeavor Purusha is at the center of every living being, collapsing the wave function every moment and continuing the existence of this reality in every possible direction.

    Given the unpleasantness encountered regularly on our current shared plane, it only makes sense to stop incarnating as profane matter beings and pursue a more permanent place in a higher realm while keeping the option to manifest here at will. The surest path to such an existence in our waking hours is deep meditation and reconciling these dualities in a synergism of higher self. Whether that is a truer existence is up to the traveler, but given the doctrines of Maya as illusionary existence and the so-called Allegory of Plato’s Cave, it is worth an effort for us to master travel up the Tree or into the Tao as your preferred map guides you.

  • We kill our shamans

    We kill our shamans

    One of the problems I encounter living as a mystic in the western world, is there is no respect for individuals living in altered states of consciousness. Whether drug induced, pursued through meditation or ecstatic practice, or the product of full-blown psychosis. The individual in an altered state is uniformly shunned, feared, beaten, incarcerated, or killed. It has been repeatedly shown even by western science, first in the 50s and 60s, then again starting with new research in the early 2000s that psychosis is functionally the same as dreaming while awake. (Tyrelll and Griffin BMJ 2007;335:91) In the developing world, and throughout history indigenous cultures have treated this as a gift and a source of great wisdom, while western culture has decided that it would rather harm or outright kill the waking dreamer.

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    As a mystic who entered my path as a result of repeated psychotic episodes, I have experienced first hand the carceral abuse and chemical destruction of the mental health industry, even going so far as to join that industry as a worker for a brief time to try and mitigate some of the abuse for the few people I could reach, and to validate the experiences of the psychotic. My research, both academic and subjective has led me to the conclusion that this society has shut out any hope of contacting greater reality in favor of the comfortable somnambulance of the world of death and destruction.

    Plato’s Cave

    Academia and science have had a choice, the whole academy was based on Plato who explicitly stated that this world was an illusion and that pointing out the path to reality would likely get you killed. Furthermore, continuing hard scientific evidence that consciousness is fundamental to the nature of reality gets ignored or explained away when quantum experiments should absolutely prove that we should be studying the power of consciousness. Instead we rely on the medical model and the theory of disease to “treat” those we should be training to reveal visions, heal the sick, and predict the future as well a showing the gate to a realer reality than the one we are interacting in.

    Frater Ponderator, CC BY-SA 4.0 https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0, via Wikimedia Commons

    On the Tree of Life the path upwards from our material world to the higher dimensions goes through the unconscious at Yesod. The only living people that can guide us on this path are those gifted individuals who are able to tread the unconscious while awake. They are the evidence that there is in fact another world. We can thank them for even knowing there is a possibility of an afterlife. The somnambulist, well adjusted to a sick and dying world, cannot be our guide out of the four-dimensional prison that we are in. While science edges ever closer to the admission that higher realms exist and magic is real, the increasing stress of just existing in the modern world pushes more and more towards psychosis. The disease is forcing us towards the cure whether the doctors like it or not. More mystics and shamans are slipping through the cracks. More weirdos are finding their comfort in alternative spiritualities and finding their voice on the Internet. Listen to them. Not everything the active psychotic says can be applied to the current reality, and you might have a hard time picking gems from psycho-babble but those of us that can travel back and forth between worlds do have something to offer. We need you normies of the West to please stop killing us and give us a space to share our gifts.

  • Towards a Science of Religion

    Towards a Science of Religion

    In order to explain the religious beliefs I have developed over years of mysticism heavily influenced by the Western Mystery Tradition I thought I’d share this diagram:

    Notice that unlike the many spurious attributions out there, I do not include the chakra system as equivalent to the tree of life. The chakras are part of the internal system and the crown chakra Sahasrara is not equivalent with the crown Sephira Kether. The system of yoga is a necessary prerequisite for traveling up the tree not a substitute for it. This can be seen in the attribution of the World trump, which symbolizes Kundalini awakening, to the first path leading from the terrestrial realm to the astral Sephiroth Yesod. Yoga is the practice that gives entrance to the tree, it does not subsume it. This is how religion should be practiced. Master yoga, and use the Tarot trumps to learn the riddles that are posed by the guardians of the paths. While astral projection can be learned and practiced to get some limited access to the astral Sephira; Yesod, Hod, and Netzach, this is essentially a dead end to further work, because astral projection occurs in a semi-conscious state and is over-shadowed by interference from the dream world as well as unprocessed impressions from daily life in Malkuth. In order to travel the tree with full consciousness, one must raise the Kundalini Serpent all the way up the spine and sustain it. This is not a small feat, and it is where many schools of yoga end. I would argue that it is the end of heaven-blindness and ignorance of the Source, but merely a beginning in the practice of mysticism. As such the diagram above is the only map one needs to explore higher dimensions through rigorous practice and devotion to Union with God.

  • Dad Grass

    Dad Grass

    Dad Grass boxes

    Just ordered some joints from a company that’s selling CBD hemp flower as the way to get somewhat (maybe?) high. The company pines for the day of sneaking a pinch of old compressed mexi brown from your Dad’s stash. Billed as a much mellower smoke than the crazy engineered hydroponics and melt your brain strains available at the dispensary, it’s also the polar opposite of the dabs that all the kids are into these days. It’s also 100% legal to ship to all 50 states. While it seems crazy to me what I just paid to smoke rope, what the hell, I’d like a tiny head change without getting actually high. If this seems up your alley you can order from this link and get 10% off

  • The senseworldcafe subreddit

    The senseworldcafe subreddit

    In order to try and make a place for discussion of these posts and topics and in order to avoid running a forum or allowing comments on the site itself we’ve created a subreddit devoted to just those things. Come by have a visit and make your voice heard. We take suggestions and criticism well, so feel free to chime in on what we post. Reddit community guidelines do apply, but we won’t ban your post just because you didn’t like something. Join the conversation!