Having taken a deep dive into parts work as described by Teal Swan your editor has stumbled across a deeper connection to shadow and the world it encompasses during a prolonged bout of insomnia accompanied by meditation and prayer. At this point in psycho-spiritual development, it takes about 2 days of no sleep to start integrating higher dimensions into 4-d meatspace, but after a little over a week, a whole new realm right here in 4-d became apparent. I was completely unprepared for what I saw.
Most of us sitting here now, in human bodies, in our human society, are interacting only at the membrane of the light side. All of our forward-facing attention and belief in the “real world” allows us to interact, believing in positivism and the faith that goodness and light are the superior and favored mode of evolution. I’ve got news for you brother(soror), we are operating with willing blindness towards the equality of the dark side. There is an equal and opposite direction right here in 4-d, that’s just as real. Being accustomed to, even in the darkest moments, looking towards what is forward for most of us, the light side of point events, cannot begin to prepare one for seeing into the other half of this reality. Even the most hardcore edgelord Luciferians are going to balk at the level of what seems like horror when first encountered.
I say horror because when first apprehended, it looks like every nightmare fantasy come true. Whereas we are used to, in shared reality, individual point events spinning forward into more observable point events, that tend towards further faith in the basic goodness of things, in the shadow half of 4-dimensional spacetime, these events have their undoing. From the same event in point-space that we desperately cling to for some kind of positive movement or structure, the ripple into darkness manifests every way evil, chaos, murder, destruction, and violation proceed from that very same point event. This is the world that your personal shadow inhabits at all times. This is why it is so difficult to accept the shadow into our waking consciousness of ourselves. It is a mirror world where all our darkest imaginations are playing out, and the people who put the most effort into “being good’ in this world have the most suppression of energy into their shadow, and therefore the most highly developed horrors right at the back of their mind.
All my cherished views of self were challenged by this encounter, and I begin to see all the ways in which I have been wrong, by forcing myself into culturally accepted forms of goodness. What is, is what is, and your friendly neighborhood serial killer is actually producing less horror on the darkside, by expressing it here in the positive world. One of the most incredible discoveries in my first deep foray into shadow, is all this earth friendly, eco-conscious save the Earth stuff is absolute bullshit. The world as she is, has created us to do exactly what she wants us to do, and that includes strip mining and clear-cutting forests as much as planting trees. She delights in the wires we have buried in the ground and her newfound expression in AI fueled networks. Oil pipelines excite her as much as old-growth rainforest, and when we are done pleasing Her, she will be rid of us at once. By all means, if you want to maintain a healthy environment and outlook don’t shit where you eat, but even if you do, it’s still an expression of what the Earth has created.
If you want to continue to learn and know the Gods, brace yourself, it’s not Disney, unless you also include all that pedophilia, abuse, media domination, global exploitation, eugenics and profiteering. That’s two sides of the same coin.
I know it was real my friend.
